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*sans the skeleton ([personal profile] trombones) wrote in [community profile] rackofbadcds2016-10-26 01:48 pm
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cover our eyes, it's a calming way to blame and hide the truth

At first, Alphys said that she needed his help with "something". That probably should should have been in the first clue. By the time Sans got there, had just dumped the second of a familiar pair of legs in a cart (really, they're heavy). She sputtered into a nonsense explanation, how "something" was busted, how she really needed a second pair of sockets on "something", and how "something" might be in a bad mood now that he can't chase her.

Did she say "he"? "Something". She meant "something".

And before Sans could open his mouth, he felt an uncermonious shove of a clawed hand behind them both. He stumbled into the adjacent room. Alphys wheeled the cart away, and the skeleton whirled around just as steel doors slid shut with a boom behind him.

He stares down the metal He looked over his shoulder at "something".

...

Nope. Hell nope. He turns back around.

"Alphys. Come on. Open the door."

No answer. Sans turns back around. Another couple awkward seconds pass. Finally, the monster shrugs his arms up in the air.

"Welp. If this is a practical joke, tells Alf she needs practice. See ya."

...

...

...

It takes a second to realize he's still standing there. As in, not going anywhere. As in, not teleporting. He looks down. His SOUL is green. Not the healing green, the other green. Oh.

"Oh."

He remembers the hand that pushed him a second ago. He can already hear her voice in his head.

NGAHHHHHH!!! FINALLY! MAN, why didn't I think of this sooner?! Hey, Papyrus! Check out what I can do to your brother!!

[personal profile] ex_mettacrusher33 2016-10-30 07:22 am (UTC)(link)
...this is exactly why Mettaton didn't want to come here today.

It was only because his charging port was fried! He didn't even want to talk to Alphys after all her insatiable meddling! "I'm s-so sorry, b-b-but you needed to talk to him!! You're... you're a m-mess and you won't talk to a-anyone! All you do is work! Y-you're totally spiraling," she whined in an awful attempt to defend her horrible actions.

Of course he wasn't talking to anyone! He can't trust anyone!! No one cares about his feelings! All they ever do is blame him for having them! He just wants to work and not think and not be judged right now!

But no, he tried to be the better person and came to her and let her put him into sleep mode and now he's woken up without any limbs and the number two person on the People I Never Want To Look At 'Lest I Suffer Immense Emotional Turmoil List is standing in front of him and OH MY GOD SHE WAS DOUBLE-TEAMING WITH UNDYNE IS THERE NO ONE WHO WANTS TO SEE HIM SUFFER

From the intense look of hatred and raw disgust flashing onto his face, it's obvious that Mettaton 1) saw Sans, 2) processed Sans was there, and 3) was most certainly awake. That doesn't stop him from immediately dimming his eyes and letting his head fall limp.

If he pretends to be shut off, there doesn't have to be a conversation.

[personal profile] ex_mettacrusher33 2016-10-31 04:36 am (UTC)(link)
This is fine. This will end. Alphys will get bored and let them go, then Mettaton will give her a piece of his mind. She'll fix his charger and he'll never speak to her ever again. He will never speak to any of these people ever again. All they've done is proven that they don't deserve him and that's fin-

Tink.

Tink.

Tink.


Oh, you have got to be kidding him.

This is torture. This is... This is UNFAIR. So Mettaton said some awful things in the heat of the moment - he was the victim here!! He was the one that was suffer-- No. No!! He's fine!! He is FULFILLED and LOVED and HAPPY. EVERYTHING is fine! He can ignore this!

Tink.

Tink.


He's fine. He can wait this out.

30.

50.


Fine. FInE. THIS is FINe.

70.

80.


EVERYTHING IS OKAY.

100.

A little known fact about ghosts: they use a special magic not seen in any other Monster in the underground. This gray magic is harmless and intangible. It's mainly used to express emotions and messages directly from their soul to the soul of whoever they are battling, but Mettaton only ever used it to as a sort of flourish for his shows. What else would he do with the ability to conjure magic words?

...right now? Trapped in a room with a Monster he hates by the hands of his supposed best friend and forced to listen to the same, repetitive noise over and over on top of already having four months of bottled emotions being shaken like a bottle of MTT-brand Soda--

It's a seething, shaking flurry of nonsense filling the air around his core. FInE FiNE FINE i'm hAPPY EVERYONE LoVES ME AND i'M HaPPY HApPYBREAK TIME! HApPY HAPPY FiNE FINE HApPy AND FINE

[personal profile] ex_mettacrusher33 2016-10-31 08:49 pm (UTC)(link)
screeeeEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

and then

the worst sounds to ever come from a living being. Mettaton has listened to all sorts of horrible sound effects. Foley and all that ADR nonsense, darling. But this...

Oh god, this is never going to end. Did his charger failing actually kill him? Because he's in hell. He didn't think hell existed or that he deserved to go there, but here he is.

In it.

Honestly, he never even noticed his own magic going off; he's much too focused on pretending to be offline and ignoring every noise out of Sans' disgusting mouth. But the coolant surrounding his core his boiling, sparks are beginning to shoot from his empty arm-sockets, and the onslaught of gray attacks are beginning to become... personal.

i'M FINE i'm fiNE I'M
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH MY GOOOOOOOOOOD
ARE YOU JUST HERE TO TORTURE ME
CAN'T YOU JUST SHUT UP
WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU
I'M JUST TRYING TO WORK
I'M JUST TRYING TO SURVIVE
I AM REALLY NOT FEELING UP THIS RIGHT NOW
WHY DOES EVERYTHING HAVE TO BE A GAME TO YOU
JUST STOP IT
STOP IT
STOP BEING SUCH A SELF-CENTERED SELFISH ASSHOLE FOR FIVE SECONDS
JUST SHUT UP!!!!!

[personal profile] ex_mettacrusher33 2016-10-31 11:41 pm (UTC)(link)
YOU KNOW I CAN'T EAT

That is IT!! The lights are back on in Mettaton's eyes as he-- ...oh. Oh, that's a gray attack. He's been projecting them this entire time, hasn't he? How... convenient.

Without any arms, the robot can only huff and move his head to flick his bangs to the side. They immediately fall back into place. No. You can't give in to your anger. There's no point. He'll just be proving everyone right - he's the bad guy, he's selfish, he doesn't think before he acts. That's what they want, isn't it? To prove he's just as awful as they all think he is?!

When he finally speaks, the words come with a strained crackle. "Sans."

...it's all that manages to leave his speakers. There's too many emotions, none of them good, stewing in his SOUL. They're flashing gray letters across the floor.

why is this funny to you
how can you sit on your high-horse and feel absolutely nothing for anyone but yourself you
you horrible person

[personal profile] ex_mettacrusher33 2016-11-01 08:23 pm (UTC)(link)
"Wha--" EXCUSE ME?! "I!" Pft! Guffah! Sputter!! "WELL." Mettaton's smiling and tilting his head and looking completely deranged; like a soccer mom who was just told her boy was suspended. This is how it's going to go, isn't it? Fine! FINE

"You're certainly here regardless!! And I can tell from that tone that you're just begging to play your and everyone else's favorite game: LET'S VILLAINIZE METTATON!!!" The gray magic forms in the air as he speaks, fake glitter raining from the lettering.

"How can we blame him for our problems this time? You can go first, Sansy, since you have the high-score. The categories are...

"Your Brother!" HE BROKE UP WITH ME

"You!" WHO CARES IF WE USED TO BE FRIENDS?!

"aaaaaaaaaaaaaand This Situation!" I'M SUPPOSED TO BE AT WORK IN AN HOUR!

[personal profile] ex_mettacrusher33 2016-11-02 05:11 am (UTC)(link)
Oh, Mettaton's going ahead!! Everybody wants a show, don't they?!

"HA!!!" He tosses his own head back and laughs so hard and so blisteringly fake that it's practically a screech. "That's something new, folks! Sans not talking about himself!!" Derisive laugh track.

"Oh, but please! The audience would love to hear another song off your new album. Especially when it contains such classic Sans the Skeleton hits, such as..."

"Yes, You Lost The One Person You Ever Loved, But Let Me Remind You How Great My Relationship Is!

You're Devastated. You Deserve It!

Goading Someone Into A Fight

I Know Your Heart Is Broken, But Let's Talk About My Dead Dad

I Can Forget All My Problems, But When YOU Do It, You're An Asshole

I Can Only Acknowledge My Own Faults When I'm Insulting You So Therefore It Means Nothing

I Never Really Apologize, But Expect You To Accept It Regardless

and our newest favorite: I Don't Care! Why don't you sing us a few bars, darling-- oh, haha, how foolish of me! You already are!"

1/2

[personal profile] ex_mettacrusher33 2016-11-03 03:43 am (UTC)(link)
Of course it's bones!! OF COURSE! What a show, ladies and gentlemen! A real emotional connection! Sans is truly opening his soul - it's all out in the open now!!

Mettaton was already seething, but being trapped brings out even more anger. So maybe he's not saying anything Sans wants to hear, but at least he's being HONEST. At least Mettaton has the decency to tell Sans what's wrong with him to his greasy, stupid fac--

...

There's a moment of silence after that pun rings out.

...Sans just dumped crumbs all over his head. There is salt and grease and crumbs all in his hair. He can feel them sliding onto his face and getting caught in the vents along his cheeks. They're tumbling into the open sockets where his arms are supposed to be.

How. Completely. And utterly. Disrespectful.

It may as well have been pig's blood from the way the robot reacts. Arcs of electricity spew from his core, hitting the bones and forcing them out of existence. Now that he can looks back into that smug, insufferable prick's face, Mettaton stares dead into those eye-sockets.

He cracks a smile.

Here come the bombs.

[personal profile] ex_mettacrusher33 2016-11-03 03:44 am (UTC)(link)

The intercom shoots to life. "METTATON, STOP!!"

He does. The bombs fade, as does the smile. His face contorts in pain, like he'd just been shot in the soul.

He hasn't heard this voice in months. Sans, on the other hand, probably heard it just a few hours ago. It comes with the tale-tell sound of someone stomping their foot.

"You're both being so immature!! I don't want you to be mad at each other because of me!! I didn't want this!!! I just wanted you to talk to each other!"

There's a pause. Looks like the immediate anger has run out. Papyrus was never great at staying mad. "...so. Erm... I HAVE A LIST OF TOPICS I'VE PREPARED IN ADVANCE FOR THIS MOMENT but Undyne wrestled them away from me and-- UNDYNE!!"

"OH MY GOD, YOU NERD. Just let them fight it out!!"

"THOSE ARE IMPORTANT NOTE-CARDS AND YOU WILL GIVE THEM BACK!!"

"AHAHAHA, OOOOOOH MY GOD. 'How does watching a sunset make you feel?'! This is a HEART-TO-HEART, not a DATE!"

"I KNOW THAT?? IT'S A GOOD QUESTION!! IT'S--"


The arguing continues in the background as feedback cuts into the mic. Alphys' voice overtakes the other two's. "...u-uh. I'm j-just gonna let them... d-do their thing. Really, though. You uh. Y-you're both being j-jerks. Major jerks. Like... W-worse than you've e-ever been."

Sigh.

"Just talk to each other."

The intercom cuts off.

[personal profile] ex_mettacrusher33 2016-11-04 03:07 am (UTC)(link)
Mettaton should. He wants to. God, he wants to. After months of being an emotional wreck, of being miserable and exhausted and betrayed and lied to, this terrible meeting should have him kicking every single wall down with Sans attached to the bottom of his shining pink boot.

One, he doesn't have his legs. Two... That's not what Papyrus wants. He wants them to talk.

Talk...

He isn't making eye-contact either. His head's turned down, eyes off and squeezed shut, lips twisted into an ugly scowl. He looks like he's either going to vomit or sob. He looks like he just got dumped all over again.

...The words aren't coming out. Maybe it's pride; Mettaton was never good at apologizes or expressing himself, especially not lately. That required trust and humility. He hated trusting himself with anyone. Not after Alphys. Not after Papyrus. Not after Sans.

Maybe he's still too shaken from hearing the voice he's been desperately trying to forget; you don't put all of that elusive trust into someone, put all of your faith and love, something you've never felt toward another person, into them and have it be okay when they walk away. You don't end up okay. Not after everyone tells you it was your fault and you can't trust anyone with how it made you feel.

Maybe chisp crumbs are in his voice modulator. Doesn't matter. Mettaton isn't speaking.

Gray words flash onto the floor instead.

I was always there for you.
I gave you a job.
I let you work whenever you wanted to.
I paid you whatever you wanted me to.
I turned a blind eye to any of your ridiculous shenanigans when I would have gotten after anyone else.
I listened to you when you pushed me to be with your brother.
I listened to all of your advice on how to make him happy.
I listened to you when you were miserable about your father or how you were as a brother.
I let you break into my house.
I helped get you together with the woman that you're still with!!

I acted like you were my brother.


It's stupid to be crying. He isn't crying. He just has crumbs in his eyes...

And none of it ever meant anything to you.

[personal profile] ex_mettacrusher33 2016-11-05 07:13 pm (UTC)(link)
And YOU DO?! Mettaton attempts to laugh. It sounds like a shaking, grating mush of error noises and mixed-up sound clips.

Well, that explains why he isn't talking. Must be too many emotions clogging the works.

Ghosts are weird.

Do you even realize how infuriating you are?!
It's like talking to a wall!!
A wall that never thinks about what it does to other people so it can go home and feel smug about how much better it is than everyone else!!
You assumed you NEEDED to defend your brother because that would mean you're the good guy instead of the asshole railing on the person your brother DUMPED. HE left ME.
You never ONCE said that you were sorry or asked how I was or what you could do so you could just sit there and give me that awful face like being near me was such a BURDEN on YOU!!
You won't even apologize NOW! You just want to explain yourself so you don't look like the horrible, self-righteous person that you are.


Ugh, stop crying. Stop crying. You're so ugly when you cry.

I have crumbs in my hair!!

[personal profile] ex_mettacrusher33 2016-11-06 07:15 am (UTC)(link)
Oh my god. Oh my god, Mettaton is going to scream. There's just no end to this, is there? What was he supposed to do? Nothing, right?? There was nothing he could have possibly done aside from doing nothing for this to end up okay!! He couldn't get mad! He couldn't be miserable!! He couldn't even imagine the hell that would come if he were to be happy!!!

YOU THINK I DON'T ALREADY BLAME MYSELF?!! He's so mad. He's so mad he's shaking. The coolant around his core is bubbling again. The words are shaking just as hard. It's like the emotions are just leaking out without any control. YOU THINK I HAVEN'T BEEN WORKING MYSELF TO DEATH FOR MONTHS TRYING TO FORGET THAT HE LEFT ME BECAUSE OF ME BUT I CAN'T I CAN'T FORGET BECAUSE NONE OF YOU WILL LET ME ALL ANY OF YOU EVER DO IS TELL ME HOW HORRIBLE I AM AND I

There are hands on him. Mettaton flinches, instinctively reactivating his eyes and trying to twist himself away from an oncoming attack. Without any limbs, it doesn't do much. He can barely even keep himself from seeing San's...

miserable expression.

...despite all the hollering, he... Mettaton wasn't expecting an apology. He wasn't expecting Sans to actually feel any sort of remorse, none the less actually show it. He's spent so long bottling his emotions that suddenly having them validated instead of thrown back at him is...

He doesn't know what to do with it. Well, he was already crying. Some useless croak sounds out of his speakers as he tilts his head down in an attempt to cover his face with his hair.

Don't look at me, I'm a mess.

[personal profile] ex_mettacrusher33 2016-11-07 05:34 am (UTC)(link)
It's like someone's taken all the air out of a very angry balloon. All the wind out of some hate-filled sails. With Sans apologizing, the cycle is broken. Mettaton isn't his cousin; he can't hold a grudge when the other party doesn't give him a reason to.

Sans is tired. Mettaton is tired. Exhausted, really. He can hear Sans' burnout just as clearly as he feels his own and all he can do is limply accept the fingers poking through his hair.

He'd argue about the things skeleton hands are and are not great for, but he doesn't want to think about how he knows what he does. That's done. It's over.

...it's all over.

Mettaton's quiet for a long while as Sans works. He's online, obviously. There's still a few tears here and there, but they've mostly flowed to a stop. How dramatic of him. He's clearly just thinking. Reflecting. Letting his own relief and exhaustion settle into his metal bones.

Finally:

"'m sorry." It's a weak crackle out of his speakers, but what with how quiet they're both being, it's easily heard.
Edited 2016-11-07 05:49 (UTC)

[personal profile] ex_mettacrusher33 2016-11-09 08:35 am (UTC)(link)
The not-hug is fine. Mettaton doesn't think he's ready for a hug, not really. The distance is nice; it implies a sort of quiet respect that he hasn't gotten since the break up. It's... refreshing.

Honestly, it's not a question of whether or not he's going to forgive Sans. Of course he does. Well. Maybe not right now, but he will. He understands where the anger came from, as much as Mettaton did enjoy playing the victim and pretending otherwise. The question is whether he'll ever trust him the same way again.

...that answer isn't looking so good.

At the very least, the robot shakes his head and scoffs lightly. "Can I worry about my charge port?" His voice is still crackling and strained, but at least it's a change of subject.

[personal profile] ex_mettacrusher33 2016-11-09 05:33 pm (UTC)(link)
Mettaton catches the murmur and his own eyes drift to the jacket hanging on the wall. There's another relief; without the video feed, they couldn't see Mettaton's half of the conversation.

He couldn't see Mettaton's half of the conversation.

The question gets another strained chuckle, the idol's mind still on the camera. "Horrible. It's always the worst having to see a star take a bow." Well. He tried to make it sound funny.

...but seriously. "You wouldn't mind getting my arms for me, would you? They should be under the work bench." Alphys may have taken his legs with her, but at least she left those.
Edited 2016-11-09 17:33 (UTC)

[personal profile] ex_mettacrusher33 2016-11-10 01:18 am (UTC)(link)
"Sans." Mettaton's giving him that look. The I'm Too Tired For This Look. The one he'd perfected after watching 700 buddy-cop movies and having been personally Too Tired for anything in the past four months.

"Give me my arms." Before he changes his mind.

[personal profile] ex_mettacrusher33 2016-11-10 06:27 am (UTC)(link)
Ugh, much better. Mettaton flexes his fingers and stretches the metal of his arms; they're perfect, as to be expected. It's a joy to have them.

"...in a moment." He wanted his arms for a reason.

Running away has always been an easy thing for Mettaton. It's been easy ever since he was Sonatablook. It's always been what everyone pin-points as his worst flaw. If he doesn't like the outcome of something, he ignores it. He avoids the truth. He pretends it never happened.

...but holding on... No one ever said how much more holding on hurt. Running away only hurt when you were called out on it - when you remembered yourself. Holding on hurt every moment of every day.

He sighs to himself as he pulls the glove off his right hand. Gingerly, almost with a sort of reverence, Mettaton slides two, gaudy rings off his ring and middle fingers.

"..."

The rings stay in his palm for a moment before he turns them over to Sans.

"I know you said you hadn't considered anything with the queen, but..." He's trying to smile. It's bittersweet. "She'll like these."

[personal profile] ex_mettacrusher33 2016-11-11 04:03 pm (UTC)(link)
There's that face again: pain and regret and betrayal and loneliness and want all wrapped up in a little succinct bow. Of course Papyrus still wants to be friends. Of course he misses him. Of course he'd welcome him back, as a friend, with open arms. That's just how Papyrus always is.

He's perfect. He's sweet and charming and silly and perfect.

Mettaton knows he's running away, but who would ever blame him? You can't just be friends with someone you shared your SOUL with. Not after daydreaming about picket fences and 3-hour long, operatic wedding vows. Not after you picked out engagement rings.

"I'm sure that would be lovely." Meaning 'no.'

Consider the door closed. The metaphorical one. The real one...

Mettaton flicks his wrist and a small, box-version of himself summons into the air over by the camera. Its tiny hand smacks away Sans' jacket before it disappears.

"We're fine now, darling. You can let us out."